Sunday, November 3, 2013

Stressed

Feeling highly stressed and also highly sensitive lately. Mother and Grandma may buy a house together which is an entirely poor decision. Not that I can stop them, but I worry about what can/may happen if it goes through. I have been having a lot of problems with Matt being very unsupportive lately also. I guess he thinks I'm not really sick? I'm not sure. But he pouts about having to do chores around the house as most of the time I can't get them done on my own. And then when his family was planning the vacation, he was very much all about himself. Saying he was going to be the one "suffering" by having to drive us (Cait & I) back from Universal Studios when we got tired because he would be missing out some of HIS time at the park. It went on and on, and even his family became frustrated by it. I broke down and cried but he didn't notice. I just couldn't believe how much of an ass he was, I sure as f*ck don't choose to be this way. I'm thinking because of the added stress, I am more sensitive to stupid tv and movies! They've been upsetting me, disturbing me emotionally and making me cry. Ridiculous. Physically, my foot has been ok the past couple of days, not too bad. I've been having some sharp pains under my ribs however. They don't last long, maybe a couple of minutes. It happened twice yesterday and three times today. I've been having headaches for a few nights now too. Unusual for me. Having an "invisible" illness makes me feel like a hypochondriac. I'm always looking for something to feel "weird" and pay special attention to my body, but any little thing that would be disregarded by me in the past is now something to be listed as a potential issue or symptom.

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